I had a realization this weekend.
I was walking back to our house after being at our neighbors and feeling guilty that I hadn’t shared anything on IG all weekend. I should have shared more. Then I started thinking about our house and all the things I didn’t get put away and I thought I should have done more. I didn’t open my computer once this weekend which means I am behind today and that would have been solved if I had been more productive. My business is sort of stagnant right now given life with three kids and if I were more focused I would be in a better place professionally. I wish George was on more of a routine, Charlie and Jack were more behaved and that Dave and I had more time for our relationship.
I think as a society we are always in the mindset that we need more. We need to work more, exercise more, sleep more, parent more, teach more, be outside more, perform more, buy more – it’s exhausting! I have been feeling so rundown lately and it’s because I’m constantly living life 5 steps ahead of our current situation. Waiting for the more that is to come down the road. To the point where I went to a doctor at 6am on Saturday with crazy body pains only to discover I was extremely dehydrated. So I spent the weekend offline, refueling and resting and reminding myself that the rush for more takes away from the life that is in front of us.
So I don’t know who needs to hear this but more is not always more. I think we have been taught to feel like what we’re doing or where we are in life is not enough but I just wanted to tell you that it is. This unhealthy obsession with more keeps us from enjoying all of the gifts and opportunities in front of us. That is certainly the case with me. I have found myself trying to rush through this phase of transition and adjustment in our lives – with George, with meeting new people, with feeling settled – and I’m exhausted. We are made to think that the next phase will be even better than where we are right now and it causes us to miss so much. At least I’m speaking from experience. That slowing down, breathing in the now and just being at peace with where we are is so much more rewarding than looking ahead.
I know this is going to be one of those posts that I refer to again and again when the more creeps up and I have to be reminded that everything I need is right in front of me. Here is to a new week, feeling content knowing that you are right where you need to be. xoxo